i’ve been through worse so i can forsure get through this.

Im very boy dependant. i rely on guys for my own happiness. i need someones affection to feel loved and warm. I need that other person. I need someone to flirt with and call my own or my life would be boring. I need a boy and when I dont have one i go crazy. Boy crazy problems forreal…. fuck this shit im done!!! (= back to loving myself before tryna love someone cause honestly im fucking immature. too immature for anyone at all. playing all these stupid games and shit

feel like crying over nothing ):

of couples that can pull through anything..

I don’t even know I’m tripping so bad. It’s like the more I mention you around my friends, the harder I fall for you. I keep remembering how good you were to me and how you treated me. Damn where to even start boo.. ): We met on my homegirl’s birthday party, what a night that was! Playing bp, having cops roll in having to yell at your homies to the top of my lungs then straight booking it with you guys. Having you and your homie carry us around. Walking to the temple then seafood cove. Having you massage my hand cause i punched the wall cause i was super fuckeeeed up. I remember thinking you were a fucking cutiiiiiie. Then texting you for abit cause you only wanted to know where the parties were -___-”  after awhile we stopped talking and then you gave me your number. I texted you and we kept talking for days and finally you popped the question to be something! And i remember be too hesistant and you knew I couldnt trust you enough. But after everything I agreed and then that’s when it started May 9th! We talked everyday and late night phone calls. I loooooooved your goodmorning texts and gnight phone calls. I remember our first date LOL you and your homies picked me up! We went to regals and watched some super hero crap…. it was so awkward!! and then i remember when you first called me babe, so sad you were sick booo!! and your forehead kissses so cuteee. I remember going to your house alot and kicking it. Cuddling and hugging and crapp. I always end up sleeping or eating there haha. I hated how you always argued with me though, found it hella annoying but funny.. we had acouple dates and i had to leave to vietnam. you actually waited a month for my asss… im surprised. but when i came back we argued every damn day… to a point where i falsely accused you of shit. fuck my fuck up. and now we’re nothing but strangers, more of haters. i dont miss you, but more of the things you did though.. now its been a month just thinking about you when i was only with you for 3 months.. now you’re good and moved on wth better girls…. hope your happy ): ugh

Damn have things been different. Ever since I came back from vietnam, this summer has been great actually. Done so much wild shit and things i’ve never even imagined. From crazy illegal shit, beautiful ass places, funny ass people and just overall good vibes. hitting up beaches, parks, schools, parties and a shitload of food places. doing crazy things with the girls and laughing for days. eating like royalty. going on runs and shit. regardless of anything damn summer has been a good time. 

You think you’re smart and being a good parent doing shit like this? Yelling at me when you dont fully understand shit, when I keep telling you that my friends gonna give me the keys tomo. That the shit you say and come up with is dumb as hell, that the things you do make me want to get super heated and fucking leave this bullshit house. That if you werent my mom I would of already decked you in the fucking face, but since you are my mom I’m tryna be respectful. Be a good daughter not be one of those little bitches rude to their mom, but do you even understand the shit you’re telling me right now? Do you fucking get in your head what Im tryna say to you. Man every single damn time, fucking hate you. I dont wanna fucking live with you anymore, first chance i get im fucking gone. Now I remember why i fucking hate you so much. Cause you fucking trip balls over stupid shit. Over some damn keys? Are you fucking serious, go get a motherfucking life. Stop being on my ass for stupid shit I know you’re just tripping cause of your past experience so you’re on my ass, releasing any thing you can find to argue and yell at me about. Fucking watch one day I fucking run away from this hell home. Fuck you, why the fuck call me a dumbass and all these fobby ass shit i dont wanna hear. If you really wanna do this then dont fucking hold me back when i fucking leave. Dont call the cops on me, when you fucking pushed me to run away. Shut the fuck up with your undecisive stupid ass. Fucking hate you so much

why i drink and do so much drugs. You fucking raise my stress level for no fucking reason. -___-” OVER SOME DAMN KEYS IM GETTING BACK TOMO. wtf are you on dude

Don’t get caught slippppin (=